A journal of moments past and present as Robert walks from Earth to Eternity

Saturday, June 7, 2014

Milestones and Holidays

I have begun to experience a few of the "Milestones" that will inevitably occur during the first year of becoming a widow. I don't like that word, I feel like I'm too young for it. It feels like I'm putting a period to my life long before I'm ready to. My sister offered a different descriptive "Wife Emeritus" I like that much better. So I have now reached  the one month stage, one month ago he died, four weeks ago we had his memorial service, nest week it will be one month since we buried him.

There has already been a holiday to get through - Memorial day. Not a very benign holiday when you think about it. He was a Navy Veteran and He left this earth in May, so I guess Memorial Day will always be bittersweet to me. I spent it horseback riding with some friends, I fell off but it wasn't my fault (or the horse's) and neither of us was hurt, then on to a picnic. There were lots of folks who made me feel welcome and distracted me with  a variety of other things to talk about.

The next one coming is The Fourth of July, that one will be tough. We usually went to Bayview Idaho for the fireworks, but last year he was in the hospital and couldn't go. Two years ago we went partway down the Hiawatha Trail. This year I am trying to get a party to go with me and I will be going to a picnic with friends and then later that weekend to see the fireworks with other friends (Those are always on a Sat regardless of when the Fourth is). I really want to ride the Hiawatha Trail this year because who knows where I will be next year, no that I am planning on going anywhere , but you never know where God is going to want me to be.

All of these summer holidays are going to be tough and they have been ever since Bob got sick. We were very active folks and we loved to camp, kayak, canoe, hike and sail. Two years ago when we went down the Hiawatha, it had been years since we had done anything like that. I just stood on the trail looking out over the vista and sniffled because I was so excited to be out in God's wilderness with Bob once again. And now I hope that I will continue to have more adventures, I'll just have to take a little time out to remember the ones from years past and remember the joy that bob and I had with each other as we explored God's wonderful earth.  

 

 Hiawatha Trail Fourth of July 2012
 
 Sailing San Francisco Bay Father's Day 1990's
 
 Riding our bikes around Angel Island 1990's
 
        Kayaking in Alaska 2005